What Happens in the Story, Happens in Reality

It was a fairy tale. I also treat it as a fan fiction. What I have read from all those stories created by these beautiful minds were SO true. I have seen it and actually experienced it. Fan fiction. Thank you for my undying addiction to KPOP because I have learned different types of stories. It widened my imagination and give me the feeling of having my own beautiful love story. A love story that through ups and downs still 'survives'. But not all fan fiction have beautiful endings. 

Like the story Robotic Boyfriend, where the main girl have to let go of her robotic boyfriend for a month knowing that she developed a mutual feeling same as the robot itself. I know it's impossible but this shows that in love there is nothing impossible. After letting him go, he had to be reprogrammed, losing all his memories with the girl. This is a sad ending. There are also tragic endings like the story Whispers in the Dark, where the male protagonist was killed because of the threats done by the unseen beings. But what amazes me are the types of stories. There are two and threeshots, these are stories with two to three chapters only. But the most famous is the oneshot. A story of one setting. only a short one.

Well, my fan fiction? It's a oneshot and has an ending of the same genre where the characters becomes friends after the breakup. I know this is even possible but being friends with your ex is one kind of a hell!

The sign seeking syndrome went off when I was on the verge of giving up. It was a hard decision. Asking for a sign is hard because you don't have any idea what answer will be given to you. Happy or sad, tragic or not.  I asked for the sunset sign. Why so? I don;t know I just felt that sunset would close all the hurt that I am feeling inside me. All the painful emotion being bottled up inside me. Receiving one text of question and answer made my whole fan fiction experience HIATUS. The same situation, I've read it. When I was reading it I just feel a little sadness but when I was on the story IT FELT LIKE HELL. We have to end it at the day of our 3rd month. I was like dating a celebrity and I was the ordinary girl. We have to give up each because we "don't have time for each other" anymore. Wow! And I have to cry my eyes out. It wasn't the type of ending I want. But what makes me smile behind these painful tears is the realization that he still wants to be friends with me. And I hope it will be the same as always.

It pains me to talk about this for now. It's as fresh as the cut of a knife. Writing this one down makes my tears pour out. but I have no choice but to let it out to the one thing that makes my heart at ease. Writing. Funny isn't it? I was imagining we would reach our 100th day but 10 days away from that day we have to free each other. I never REGRETTED every thing even I didn't have any HARD feelings. Being hurt is natural. Crying is a part of it. I only wished I was able to face him and hug him before I say goodbye to the sweet relationship we had together. HECK! I have to blow my nose several times. My poor pillow was soaked with my tears. 

What keeps me going right now is my English class tomorrow! At least, I have something to keep me busy tomorrow. I just hope I won't exhaust myself. I'm used to crying but I didn't expect that this would hurt twice as what I have felt the first time I cried for 'that' guy. 

"If you're considering giving up on someone...you probably already have."

I just did... And I hope he'll be happy. He'll take care of himself, fix himself and still stand up to what he believes in. I wish all the best in him because I know in the future he'll find that person or we can remake our own story. 

As for me, I have to do good for myself first. Make myself a better person so I can be better to the next person that will light up my life. As for my Frog Prince, he will always have that special space in my heart considering that he picked me up during the days that I was down on my feet. 

GOD planned our lovestory. Too bad he rushed the ending. Acceptance is the cure!